|This is what happened today.
||[Mar. 13th, 2006|03:33 pm]
I was at home with my brother and his friend, Matt. Bored, and with nothing else to do, we decided to walk to southridge mall. When we got there, we checked out EB games for a while, and not finding what they were looking for, they decided to go upstairs to Gamestop. So, we walked to the escalator. I saw two familiar people standing there.|
It was Amy. My ex-girlfriend. My first girlfriend. The one I wrote about an entry or so ago. And Alex, her current boyfriend. They have been going out since my junior year.
I felt sick. They definitely saw me, and they knew I saw them. I rushed up the escalator along with my brother and Matt. God, the emotions.
We went to Gamestop. I told them that I wasn't feeling well and I opted to sit on the bench outside. I sat down and saw Amy and Alex walk into the Radioshack next door.
I thought to myself:
"This is your chance. Go over there and talk to them. Tell them you're sorry for what you did back then. You need to do this."
There was some hesitation. But I knew that if I didn't do this, I could never go on with my life.
I went in. They were looking at cell phones, I believe. I think a customer service representative was talking to them at the time (she was right there the whole time this took place).
I walked up to Alex and I said, "Hi". I can't remember the exact words I said (I'm a little emotional right now, so I apologize for any of the gaps in the story), but the gist of it was "Back in high school, I said a lot of bad things about you and Amy. I just want to say that I'm sorry, I know what I did was wrong, and I wish you both the best of luck in the future."
He was very amicable. Amy didn't look at me at first, but as I went on she slowly turned her head and uh, looked at me. Sorry, I'm not one for clever wordplay right now.
I shook his hand. We said our goodbyes (amy waved and said goodbye, too) and I left the store.
I can move on, now.
There's still some sadness, sure. But now I think I can truly heal now and find someone else to love and care about. But not right away. I'm going to take it easy for a while and get my shit together. I'll start dating again, nothing serious.
I know this all seems fairly inappropriate for a blog, but I figured that I need to get these feelings down right now. Oh, and I owed it to JSP for the advice he gave me. Sup Jeff.
Funny thing about all this is: the whole time this transpired, that Radioshack sales rep was standing right there. I wonder what she thought of all this.